touching on guilt and depression

The littlest things make me feel guilty, which then creates a downward spiral into further depression, a need to self harm and suicidal thoughts. You think I don't know that killing myself would be "selfish" and that I need to "think about others"? Fuck you. I've had enough of catering to other people's delicate and ignorant egos. I'm very much aware of people around me, and how much better their lives would be without me in them.